A much needed insight

One of my strength is that when I decide to do something I don't easily give up. But this is also my biggest problem. I'm so focused on the things I want to achieve, that on my way to reach my goal I miss the point where it should be better to stop and ask myself "do I still want this?"

This is what happened when I decided to become a coach. Sometimes between studying and setting up a practice I lost my passion for this goal. I did what I thought I have to do e.g. training, building the website and so on, but no matter what I tried nothing really worked out like expected. "But it has to!" you would hear me say, I tried to force the flow.

Because other people knew about my plans and asked me "how is the coaching going?" how could I tell them, that I'm no longer really interested to have my own coaching business. What would they think?

I ignored the signs that showed up the last year over and over again. I've spent most of my days exhausted, sick and genuinely unhappy.

So, how come that I realised now what I tried to ignore in the past? Well, I had a coaching session myself a few days ago and one part of my homework was, to imagine how my life would look like in 5 years from now. The other part was to think about ways to get a client by the end of the month. It suddenly dawned on me that I have absolutely no interest to do the same things I did so far to get the business off the ground. The mere thought about how much I struggled in the past makes me stay under the duvet.

Therefore it is no longer necessary to think about ways to attract clients. My goal no longer excites me and I don't care what other people think. If there are clients in the future I'm happy to coach them, if not, so what.

I appreciate what I have learned so far, I always wanted to have my own website, as well as a blog and I wanted to write articles. But it is time to let go of what no longer works for me and make room for something new.

What I really want is being happy and healthy. I like to travel and have a long vacation. Oh yes, and thought of writing a bookd makes me really go "Wow!"

I want to spend enough time with my Dad, enjoy the weekends without feeling guilty that I haven't worked enough on my goal. I want to meet up with friends after work, go clothes shopping and not asking myself afterwards, if I had better spent the money for my coaching business.

I just want to have fun with what I'm doing and whenever a goal no longer excites me, I won't pursue it any longer.

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Christina

Happy New Year to you all!

I'm back from my much needed vacation.

I've spent two weeks with my Dad, away from the bustling city of Munich. My days were filled with sleeping, eating, drinking, reading, spoiling the cats.... and sometimes I took a walk outside. It was the first time in years, that I didn't miss my life back home in Munich.

That made me think how I would love to spend the rest of my life? Definitely I want to enjoy life more and take more time off to relax. Because I feel I need more time to rest.

And since I saw a picture of the Maldives I dream about spending my next vacation there! For me, this is an adventure, because I always chose big cities near a beach but also near a shopping mall to prevent I'm getting bored.

Now I imagine lying on the white sandy beach, listening to the soft sound of the waves, a cocktail in hand. My beach bungalow is only a few steps away with an open shower and a jacuzzi on the terrace, where I relax after writing a few pages of my bestseller. Food and drinks are delicious and all-inclusive and from time to time I take a plunge in the ocean, where a colourful underwater world awaits me. Ahh.... bliss!

Of course, there are other plans for 2008 too, but this one is more exciting than anything else! And nobody says I can't work and have fun too.

So if you make plans for 2008, make having fun and enjoying life your number one!

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Christina